Waiting

It's Saturday morning and I'm waiting for my "." to arrive. It's officially 4 days late and I'm not pregnant, which is fine since I've been taking Lupron. I talked with the doctor. It's possible that the delay could be a cyst which is a side effect of the previous cycle of IVF. The cyst is expected to naturally release itself from me when I get my "." The Lupron should be helping with this release, too. If it hasn't released by Monday, I'll have to go in to the doctor's to run some tests.

Cyst - a sac of fluid with abnormal character, according to dictionary.com. It's in my body, preventing my period, and it has an odd personality. According to another site about 15% of women who have a poor IVF outcome develop cysts. I've been lucky so far that this is the only side effect that we've had.

So, I'm left to wait. This will push back my entire calendar even further, nearly having me do the retrieval and transfer closer to Thanksgiving. It is what it is, but it is frustrating. Thankfully, I have an entire weekend of activities in front of me to keep me occupied.

., please.

xo

Big girl pants

I started my shots of Lupron two nights ago. Frank coached me on how to do it alone as he is going to be gone for a day next week and I will be traveling. I did it! It was not a big deal after all because we use ice to numb the area before I get a shot.

Last night, I injected myself again. I am proud. I feel like I'm wearing my big girl pants (and panties, for that matter).

This time around already feels easier than last time because I know what to expect. I'm glad that part of the stress is gone.

Keep thinking positive and fertile thoughts.

And so it begins...

My calendar arrived for the next round. I start my Lupron shots this Wednesday. I will have my retrieval around the first week in November. The transfer will happen 3 - 5 days after that. We should know the results by Thanksgiving.

 Every day I see someone who is pregnant, watch a show where someone wants to be pregnant, or find out a friend just had a baby. I'm ready for it to be me. This week, I attended a boat party where there was a psychic. She saw a boy and a girl in our future. If only I could count on that! All I can do is believe. 

BELIEVE!
xo

It's a sign

It's been just over two weeks since we found out the news on the first round. It's been full of ups and downs and a curiosity of where we are headed in creating our family. We are going to try again, which makes me feel positive. On the downside, I have concerns that maybe this is going to take longer to become parents than I had envisioned. We have been trying for two years. Statistically speaking, this should take us up to three tries before we should consider an alternative, such as adoption. Our goal is to be parents, so one way or another, we will have some children. My focus right now is on this next round and the path to a positive and healthy pregnancy.

After speaking with the doctor, she decided to change my protocol. I'm not taking birth control pills and I will stop taking lupron a little earlier this time. She expects that I will produce more eggs with this change. Looking ahead, the estimated date of retrieval is in the first week of November. The transfer will be just a few days after that.

Having gone through the last round, I have a better idea of what to expect. I expect to be more relaxed. I'll take a few extra days off to just stay at home. I will create a zen environment on the couch. I'll be available to talk on the phone, watch a movie at home, and shop online. Overall, I'll be slowing down just a bit more. I'm actually looking forward to it.

Finally, last night, I was walking down Van Ness and came across this alley.

It's a sign. I mean that in both ways.

xo